Monday, January 12, 2009
its so freaking unfair that everything is my fault when YOU screwed up my chances. dont blame me for something that was your fault. fuckyouverymuch. i'm so sick of being your doormat. no matter how well i do something, its not worth recognizing. but when i fail, you highlight it to every goddamn person.
i'm sick of it. ever since i was a kid, everything i do isnt good enough. i'm tired of you putting ideas and words in my mind and mouth and when it happens, you blame it on me, my friends, my boyfriend, everybody and anybody whose important to me.
you know, one day it'd be your turn to be helpless and thankgod, i hate you and the responsibility will be lumped onto someone else who loves to kiss up to you because i wont be there. or maybe i will -just to rub it in your face ya know?
i tried. love. a child may love unconditionally. but as a forgotten kid growing up? the only love you'd get from any of us if you get us something we want. you've seen it for yourself. a man who provided for his siblings and children for nearly his entire life has all their support. in your case, its likely to be the opposite. maybe care, concern but we'll be fighting to toss off responsibility.
i'm sick of it. ever since i was a kid, everything i do isnt good enough. i'm tired of you putting ideas and words in my mind and mouth and when it happens, you blame it on me, my friends, my boyfriend, everybody and anybody whose important to me.
you know, one day it'd be your turn to be helpless and thankgod, i hate you and the responsibility will be lumped onto someone else who loves to kiss up to you because i wont be there. or maybe i will -just to rub it in your face ya know?
i tried. love. a child may love unconditionally. but as a forgotten kid growing up? the only love you'd get from any of us if you get us something we want. you've seen it for yourself. a man who provided for his siblings and children for nearly his entire life has all their support. in your case, its likely to be the opposite. maybe care, concern but we'll be fighting to toss off responsibility.
what we could have been, 10:12 pm.
